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Mon Aug 15, 2016, 9:50 AM
        I start my Junior year two weeks from today, which is equally exciting and terrifying since I've been out of school for so long.

        I put in my notice last week and will be leaving my full time job at the end of September to focus on my degree and find part-time work that is more flexible/accommodating to my school schedule, because I've accepted that working over 40 hours a week while also trying to excel full time as a college student is idealistic and insane, and I'm better off giving up one than burning out in both.

        And despite being highly qualified in multiple fields with a cumulative 4 years of various leadership experience, the prospect of trying to hunt for jobs again as a student with limited hours is absolutely petrifying.

        So, while I'm in between jobs and trying to make the grade, I'm open to any paid art projects. Please contact me if you need a concept artist or illustrator and are interested in teaming up!

Skin by SimplySilent

Starting Over!

Thu Jun 9, 2016, 10:57 AM
      I don't know how many times I can reassure my followers that I'm not dead and still keep an audience, but I'm grateful to those who have stuck around despite the creative hiatus.
      The past seven years have been incredibly rocky, between dropping out of college, establishing myself on an alternative career path and coping with some health scares in the family (as well as a recent loss). I've tried to pursue art on the side, but failed repeatedly, as there was just no place for it given my circumstances in the moment.
      I'm in a much better place now, however, and am very proud to say that I'm officially going back to school to finish what I started. In 11 weeks, I'll be starting my Junior year of college to complete my Bachelor's in Art (with a concentration in Illustration).

      In the meantime, I'm still working full-time in the blood business, but trying to get my financial affairs in order so I can comfortably leave next year to pursue art full-time.

      Thank you, DeviantART watchers, for your support and loyalty through my absence.

Skin by SimplySilent

Time Management

Journal Entry: Thu May 28, 2015, 8:45 AM
  Sometimes, I wonder how my life would have turned out had I stuck to the game plan.
  Granted, the blood business isn't a terrible way to go, if you're looking for a steady career to pay the bills, but the hours are chaotic, often exceed 40 hours a week and leave little time or energy in between for creative endeavors.

  Ten years ago, I had my nose buried in a sketchbook, took art classes on the regular and churned out a new piece of art (be it a sketch or a oil pastel masterpiece) every day.
  Today, however, I find it difficult to compile enough hours in a week just to complete a single sketch. And, I can't help but wonder how things might be if I had been capable of steering away from the detours and found myself creating for a living.
  See, I still have this dream of someday sitting in a lofty apartment overlooking the city, pouring out my heart and thoughts onto paper on a giant split-top drafting desk--my windows covered in Post-Its and gesture sketches, my time completely my own.

  Someday.

  In the meantime, I've got a number of works in progress--I'm just lacking the hours in a day to complete them.
  So please stay tuned. I'm working on an illustrated blog, an children's book (which I'm writing and illustrating) and trying my hand at some basic Flash animations.

  All in good time.

First World Problems

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 15, 2014, 3:38 PM
   Early this month, I landed a job as office manager for a small medical clinic. In a little less than two weeks, I've graduated from the generic brand of aimless, angsty Gen Y stress, to the lesser known brand of confusing, pedantic white collar stress. I'm learning on the job how to bill insurance companies, keep payment records and answer patients' questions using words I don't exactly understand (I still barely understand the concept of a deductible). I have no idea what I'm doing, except I'm not allowed to tell anybody that I have no idea what I'm doing.
   Hilarity ensues.

   But on the bright side, I get to wear killer heels to work.

  • Listening to: Soror Dolorosa | Damaged Dreamer
  • Drinking: diet raspberry Snapple

C'est La Vie.

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 27, 2014, 2:15 PM
   Depression sucks.

   I abandoned college in pursuit of growing as an individual and filling an inexplicable void I couldn't fill. Then, I abandoned art in pursuit of a medical career, after which I abandoned my dead end waitressing job in pursuit of being more than I was.

   And so here I find myself, in the midst of a temporary period of unemployment. I have limitless options and opportunities at my disposal, but I'm struggling to get my foot in the door anywhere. And yet, I'm too stubborn to settle for the drudgery of what's familiar, because I'm so damn tired of running.

  • Listening to: Opera De Nuit | Larmes De Sang

Merry Christmas! +Update

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 25, 2012, 4:50 PM
   Merry Christmas and a Happy (albeit belated) Hannukah, DeviantART friends! I've kept myself busy these past few months and made some real-life changes to ring in 2013 with a blank canvas.
  •    Last week, I graduated from phlebotomy school last week, and have aced both State exams and my national. I have a two week externship next month (required clinical hours), and the only thing between me and my license is oodles of paperwork and an eight week processing period.
       Watch your necks, bloodbags. :hooray:
  •    After several years of coveting it, I finally snagged a hold of ashewednesday.com, and transferred my personal site/portfolio over there. Now that I have a proper-sounding artists' website, that's more motivation to actually finish designing it.
  • New art is in progress.


   How were your holidays?

  • Listening to: Corsican Paintbrush | The Bare Twigs of Winter

Update

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 13, 2012, 12:36 PM
  • Bought a new sketchbook. Will start sketching sketchy things shortly.
  • Currently in school. Majoring in Bloodletting.
  • I feel kind of like this cat today:
  • Might start doing art again after graduation this December. I have been going through old art and things and rediscovered a plethora (Yes. A whole plethora.) of characters I invented back in high school and just gradually forgot about as I realized I didn't want to do art on a time clock and started exploring alternative career paths. I kind of miss those guys and am starting to sketch them again. Those of you who have been dA followers since my old account in 2003-ish will probably be happy to know that this time they will have proper anatomy and no scoliosis. Except for the doomsquirrel. Them wings are heavy.
  • I have a lot of unused pressboard and wooden canvases I found that are still in the plastic shrinkwrap. Expect to see some experimental paintings within the coming months. Or commissions. Or both.
  • I also found some of my copyrights and LLC. paperwork from back in 2005 when I thought I was going to start an independent publishing company like a little inky-fingered badass. Cute.
    By the way, my website (which was named after said publishing-company-to-be) turns 9 years old on the 16th. Damn. Fun fact: it was named thusly because back when I was sixteen and had the metabolism of a greyhound, I used to drink a lot of soda and had a bunch of empty Jones Green Apple Soda bottles on my desk and just used the word because I couldn't think of anything fitting and really wanted to start posting things already. I kind of hate it, but it's been a part of my life for so long that I can't really let it go.
  • Reminder: Buy more ink.
  • I have to go to work in four and a half hours and still have to finish a paper on practical vampirism. Adios.


  • Listening to: The Frozen Autumn | Onyria

I Constantly Thank God For Sports Bras

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 12, 2012, 12:44 PM
   I joined a trampoline aerobics class today and feel like somebody carved out every ounce of fat in my body and replaced it with machinery and pain.


   Also, if anybody has sketchbook ideas (however random they are), feel free to throw them at me. I'm compiling an ideas list to pull from when I start classes next month and have nobody to talk to.

  • Listening to: Voyvoda | Iztok

Break The Cycle

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 27, 2012, 10:27 AM
   The first day of every month, I wake up and decide that moment is going to be the beginning of everything else. I have a cup of coffee, play my favorite songs and vow to myself to break that cycle of artist's block---I'm going to darken in those unfinished sketches, reopen the file for that abandoned novella, start writing down my thoughts in that one-page Wordpress joke I've been calling an "illustration" blog for the past year, start filling those blank wooden canvases with absolutely anything...
   And then life happens.
   I get caught up in the drudgery of working a Monday-Friday customer service job and paying bills and completing all the errands on my list and searching for school loans and catching up on sleep.
   And then I look at the calendar and another month has passed me by, and I'm no further than I wanted to be. And I vow to myself to break the cycle...to be that person I used to be, the person who used to create a new piece every day, who compulsively drew in the margins of school notes and homework assignments, who created art faster than she could find storage.
   Where did that person go?

  • Listening to: The Format | If Work Permits